Friday 31 January 2014

The Last Single Girl

So.....that pretty much sums up how I have been feeling these past few weeks.

In my teens and early 20s I loved being single and even when I was the only single one of my friends it didn't bother me in the slightest, I was too busy having a good time. ;)
But now we are all getting older everyone is getting engaged, married or having babies and I'm starting to feel a little left in the dust.
The thing of it is I'm not even sure I want all that serious stuff, I still feel young and crazy! the thought of being tied down makes me want to run 1000 miles away. Having said that when all the girls you used to go out on the town with are now all loved up you cant help but feel slightly alone.
What has really made this hit home is my last single girlfriend is now all loved up too. Don't get me wrong I couldn't be more happy for her, She is an awesome person and the guy she has met is super nice too. Its just now I have nobody to "joke" about being single forever with.

What makes being the last single girl left even worse is this is inevitably the first thing people always ask you about... so how's the love life?, have you tried Internet dating? what about that new tinder app you need to get on there! and of course from my lovely nan "do you have a man friend yet?" Then when you say no no still single they all look at you with those aww poor lonely single you eyes!
Then comes the speech every single person has heard a million times "he's out there" "give it time" "everyone always finds someone" "you wont be single forever" Well I questions all of this! I know they are just trying to make me feel better but this is all such crap! My auntie is in her 50s never married and still lives at home! this is a screaming reminder that well not everyone does end up happy!

I have never had a serious relationship and at 20somthing that makes me feel a little odd as everyone around me has had a few by now. I just refuse to settle like I see so many people around me in crappy relationship just cause they think anything is better than being single! I really don't get that! surely a relationship is suppose to enhance your life not make it worse???

It doesn't help living in such a tiny country town where everyone is shacked up by the time they leave school.  I feel if I moved to a big city where the majority of people are career minded and getting married and having babies is the last thing on there mind, I wouldn't really give it a second thought.

Until then though I will continue to spend my Friday nights in with a giant glass of wine listening to lonely FM and crying into my meal for one...................................or kissing handsome strangers I met on tinder either or! :)

4 comments:

  1. You're only 25. Plenty of time yet! x

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  2. If you believe someone will come, then that's half the work. The other half should be making sure you're not completely isolating yourself. And being online socialising or chatting isn't antisocial.

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  4. For me, something that helped and started me in the right direction was a torrent of videos I downloaded, about positive beliefs, psychic ability, nlp or magick
    Well I say positive thinking isn't enough: need some positive-believing.

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